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On Being Transgender and Experiencing A Different Kind of Fatherhood

By : June 19, 2020 Comments Off
For the longest time, I struggled with depression and self-injury. I was afraid to talk about gender identity and sexuality as we didn’t talk about it in the communities I grew up in. To make matters worse, the slang words that were used when I was older were full of homophobia, transphobia, and stigma. I didn’t know what to do with my sexual attraction and admiring the masculine form wishing I had those masculine characteristics such as no breasts, a strong jawline, facial hair, and more to match how I felt on the inside instead of the physical female characteristics I was. Self-injury was one of my primary ways of coping with gender dysphoria. Nothing in my life ever felt stable or safe.  Gaining access to LGBTQIA+ resources and going
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Toxic Relationships: How to Spot the Red Flags

By : June 8, 2020 01 Comment
After watching a movie named- Abzurdah in Spanish on Netflix, I realized how toxic it can be to hold onto someone, who is okay with losing you. The movie spoke volumes about how harmful and obsessive a toxic relationship cab get when one of the partners doesn’t feel the same anymore. First love has a different essence. Amidst all the guitars and roses, the view of a relationship, that might actually be unhealthy, gets dimmed. Going bonkers when you see your partner drifting apart, is something natural which many people feel whilst being in a relationship. Let’s keep one thing in our minds: Relationship toxicity isn’t gender-specific. However hard it is to accept, we must notice the signs early and make a shift ASAP. While talking about relationships, I wouldn’t
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Are They Toxic?

By : June 8, 2020 Comments Off
I would like to take you on a short and very personal journey through my relationships and the person I have been, as well as those I have been with. Love is such an abstract and the thought /feeling of love in my brain would form to the romantic relationships that I had, and of course, fused with the ones I witnessed growing up. It was never really taught to me how to compartmentalize or properly compromise in a relationship, I mean who teaches you that stuff anyway? I think people expect kids to use television or the relationships in their families as models, but if those aren’t necessarily healthy either then what else are we supposed to learn?  I got married at freshly 18 years-old to my high school
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Schizophrenia: Metamorphosing from Imagination to Reality

By : May 22, 2020 Comments Off
Trigger warning: this article discusses mental health and violent behavior. The medical definition of 'Schizophrenia' is given as:  Schizophrenia is a serious mental disorder in which people interpret reality abnormally. Schizophrenia may result in some combination of hallucinations, delusions, and extremely disordered thinking and behavior that impairs daily functioning, and can be disabling. Being a psychology student, the disorders of the mind have always intrigued me. I always thought about how every person is wired differently and how each person copes with the trauma that he/she gets inflicted upon them during their lifetime.  One such person, I met during my summer vacation, was Rahul. He was my best friend's cousin. One peculiar thing about him was that he always used to remain quiet and immersed in his own world, without
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Do You Like Girls?

By : May 19, 2020 Comments Off
She said it so flatly, as if it was another time and space completely, “Do you like girls?” I was sixteen, I think. Yea. Sixteen, and so far from my true self that at this present day I’d have to say that she was a ghost of some sort. A ghost of what’s left after adolescence, collecting any pieces of personality, however ill-fitting. How did the ghost respond? I think she said something like, ‘Sometimes.’ Which of course would be the most reasonable and literally factual response available to the ghost at the time. Which I suppose would have meant, “the best armored response that wasn’t aggressive or offensive.” Misleading? Maybe, but what could be expected? I mean this was probably the gayest human being I’d been within a few
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Exploring my Gender Identity

By : May 19, 2020 Comments Off
I had a really hard time during puberty-- like most people do, I guess. I remember reading The Diary of Anne Frank in school, fixating on the page with wide eyes as Anne talked about the excitement she felt over becoming a woman. Meanwhile, I watched in horror as my body started to outgrow the shell I desperately wanted to stay in. When being applied to me, the word “woman” never sat right. In an attempt to resist my own growth, I developed an eating disorder. I went off to college finding myself worrying more about food and the size of my thighs than I was about making new friendships. My world quickly spiraled out of control, landing me in treatment center after treatment center. Some suggested that this was
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