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Purple

By : October 4, 2020 Comments Off
In a world of red and blue, I am purple.  It's confusing to other people, yes, but it's probably even more confusing to me.  People on the outside get the simple answers— "I am nonbinary,"  "I am genderfluid,"  "I'm just me."  I, on the inside, have to deal with all of the thoughts and feelings surrounding that. There are days when I am purple, sure. But there are days when I am colored magenta or indigo, red or blue, and on confusing days I'm a tye-dye of hues.  On even more confusing days I feel gray overtake my being. The days when I am red I question if my previous days or weeks or months were even real.  “Am I faking it?” “Is purple even a real color?” “What does
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My Mother: A Haunting

By : September 9, 2020 Comments Off
my mother is all silk skin and broken knuckles. when i was younger, i would count the wrinkles on her fingers and the lines across her palm. i wanted to know why she had more lines than i did. i never figured it out. my mother is all soft rain and wet grass. her hair hangs to the base of her neck and her smile stretches to the left more than to the right. i think mine stretches more to the right. my mother doesn’t like things out of order. every nail polish, every empty shoe box, every ripped open envelope has its place.  even people had a place. she taught me the importance of silence, the value behind a closed door and i had practiced so much that even
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On The Journey Toward A More Authentic Me

By : August 2, 2020 Comments Off
It’s a different, new kind of day,My life is changing.I am transforming.Both are packed in the same suitcase,Waiting.Struggling.Hoping.What will the future be in all it’s infinite possibilitiesAs we’re about to embark on a journey; A journey toward a more authentic me. The journey is different than I thought it would be.Words like untethering and authenticity kept pushing me to pack.A chance to live the best life you can.A chance for my mind and body to heal.A chance for love and growth.Maybe even a chance to be truly happy.But, wait they said I can only pack five things.I panicked.I pondered.Then I knew exactly what those five things had to be. My Past;It takes up a lot of room in the suitcase.Sometimes the rest of us wonder why it is there,Especially since it
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Last Chance

By : July 19, 2020 Comments Off
Jess hadn’t even wanted to go roller skating that night, she really didn’t. She tried to think of any excuse – too much homework, wobbly knees, stomachache, who would look after the dog? Once her roommates reassured her that their dog would be fine, that she wasn’t feeling sick, that her homework could wait a night, and that she’d have fun, the four of them set off to the roller rink in Tyler’s old green station wagon.  “Plus, it’s disco night! You love disco!” Anne Marie was still trying to convince Jess that she’d have fun, even though they were already on their way. No one in the car wanted to address Jess’ real issue: that she hadn’t had any fun since she and her longtime girlfriend Max had broken
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Thanks, Babe

By : July 10, 2020 Comments Off
For late night texts, dancing in the streets;Staying home from work, playing in the sheets.Holding me when I cried, wiping tears from my eyes;For loving my heart, being there when she died.Thanks, Babe. Leaving work late, “hey babe,can you wait?”A long day turned to a long night.Red flags flying in my face, As you scream and cry.Thanks, Babe. For late night fights, screaming in the streets;Never doing the work, playing with my feelings.Holding me hostage, demanding all of my time;For loving my hurt, thriving when I died.Thanks, Babe. Leaving work in the cold, “hey you,where’d you go?”A long night turned to the last fight.Tears running down my face,As I give you one last ride.Thanks, Babe. For freeing my heart, now I can breathe;Escaped your hell, don’t ever pray for me.Held me
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Fell In Love With My Thick Best Friend!

By : May 27, 2020 Comments Off
Ok so me an Darren been friends since 10th grade, he's always been there for me, sat next to me when I alone at the table, and he's just so cool an amazing! We have so much in common but lately......I been feenin for him. But the thing is, I had a boyfriend. I been texting back an forth with Mike for a minute an yeah....he fine  But sometimes I do feel like he's not 100% like whenever I wanna hold hands in public he's not down with that, or tell him bout my love for Taylor Swift an Tamar Braxton he won't let me play it in the car, he says he don't like that "girly music"....BUT LOOK HOW FINE HE IS! I been contemplating breaking it off for
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