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You Can’t Sit with Us

By : May 19, 2020 Comments Off
Not checking a box left me on my own gay island In seventh grade, I learned a new word: Bisexual. “What’s that mean?” I asked. “It’s when you like both boys and girls,” one of my friends said. There wasn’t just one, but two girls in my grade who were bisexual. I never felt like the other girls I hung out with and maybe that was why. Amber was more tomboyish and Shoshana was more girly, but I never felt like either one of them exactly, so I wasn’t sure if I was actually bisexual but I kept it in my back pocket just in case. Okay, so bisexual means I can like boys and girls. But do I like any girls or do I just think they’re really pretty?
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North of Oblivion

By : May 18, 2020 Comments Off
How my depression led me to want to die and why it didn’t happen. Trigger warning: this article discusses depression, mental health and suicidal ideation. “I’m sorry, but I can’t do this anymore.” That was it.  That was the note.  It was 2005 and I’d decided my life wasn’t worth living. I was tired of being depressed, afraid to live in my truth and most of all feeling that no one would ever accept me or love me.  I was alone in the bathroom with a bottle of sleeping pills and cried.  To understand how I got here, we have to back up a bit. I’ve always been different. My family is full of big personalities but I was more reserved in comparison. They preferred attention grabbing activities and careers.
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Reconciling your QPOC Identity

By : October 4, 2017 Comments Off
*Note: This article was originally published on Pride Pocket prior to merging with MyUmbrella* What does it mean to be a QPOC in the United States today? How are we supposed to deal with all the extra weight and pressure? Do you feel forced to choose between your culture, class, and sexual or gender identity in a constant emotional triage: "Which identity is under the most direct attack right now?" Maybe you grew up in a family or a community that believed that your queerness was evil or a learned behavior picked up due to your exposure to white culture. Maybe you're exhausted from playing cultural ambassador at every queer function you attend, or from being silenced within activist circles that have a white majority. Whatever your story is, and
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